you remind me of the guy in high school that dated the reasonably good looking chick... gets dumped... spends the next 5 years obsessed and quasi-stalking her... ends up "getting over her", marries another girl and still follows the ex on facebook... you know, they drink beer with their buddies and talk about who is an alpha male... they meticulously groom their hair and hipster beard... and can't change the oil on his own car.